Thursday, May 9, 2019

Written Thursday, May 9, 2019

Editorial note: published retroactively July 6, 2020, unedited.

 

I really, really, fucking love being a girl.

Like. Fuck. All that eloquent floral linguistic shit is just utterly inadequate.

I LOVE BEING ME AS A GIRL.

I like the me who is cute, and flirty, and adorable, and sexy, and captivating, and alluring, and fun, and silly, and magnetic, and... just all the things. I like her a lot. She's fucking awesome.

I miss her when she's gone again. On some level I kind of understand that I'm enby a lot, or even a guy sometimes. But it makes me sad. She's my favorite me.

What the fuck does this all mean? I don't know. I just wish I was always a girl I guess.