On April 28th, 2019, I wrote what I have come to think of as the most important love letter of my life. It was, by volume, mostly exposition – storytelling context, establishing the circumstances and setting the scene – and concluded with a short but poignant declaration of love for myself.
This, here, is also a love letter. It will begin, as is my way, with some exposition; and it will conclude with the heart of what I want to say.
I couldn’t resist the title of this post. I’ll take a moment to explain it properly, because it is a silly computer programming joke, but the thing I’m trying to say here really has very little to do with programming or even computers in general – I promise. If it helps, just think of this as having the alternate title: “True or False is a bad way to think about things.” You can even skip to the section with that heading if you like!
Sometimes, that includes thinking about myself – who I am, how I wound up where I am in life, and where I want to go next. This is a story about myself, and how much things have changed because of how I’ve chosen to think about me.
Editorial note: I wrote this as a journal entry in the spring of 2019, and it started a series of writings that eventually became a blog project. I’ve long enjoyed the practice of sharing my journaling openly and publicly – of “learning out loud”; I first started sharing this particular series later in the fall of 2019. Some three years later, I’m migrating it over to a new platform, but the content remains intact and largely unedited from my original, raw notes.
My journey has been long, and it continues; much has changed along the way. This is the recounting of my path. I hope that it may become a part of your survival guide.